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[25 Nov 2009|12:23pm] |
Okay..Coffee makes me feel a little drunk/somewhat elated/and a little cracked out.
You are to others, what you can't be for yourself.
think about it...
For me personally, the little good that I can do/bring for others...is not there for myself given by myself to myself.
I am fully moved into the new house.
And i've felt AWESOME the past few days.
Let's hope this is a [renewing] fresh start!
Because I really need it.
Here's to striving to be a healthy being--physically, mentally, and emotionally!
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[22 Nov 2009|04:25am] |
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this will be good for me.
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[15 Nov 2009|12:59am] |
i'm getting sick and looking up schools that i can't afford.
i have too many belongings.
these things don't define me, bro.
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| Me. |
[11 Nov 2009|09:39pm] |
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Here is one picture from the 1,600 that I took on our trip.
I love me.
I have been at work for 12 hours and 21 minutes. Maybe its the delirium of working 12 straight hours, but I just turned off the music as I am closing up the studio and thought to myself "i love me" and i need to practice that more often. I don't know why I don't love myself.
I know--when I'm in good spirits and feel good--I am a awesome person. I guess I just never really thought? about it...I don't know.
I don't want to wake up one day or turn to look at myself in the mirror and be haggard and 40 and think.."why didn't I enjoy myself when I was young?"...I really really don't want to face that year, day, morning and ask myself that and wish I had done things differently....
So with my pudgy belly and newly gained double chin and dried out hair. I LOVE ME.
wordup sisteeeeeeeeer.
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[05 Nov 2009|11:13pm] |
it doesn't make me feel any better knowing that a tropical depression is going to be over the gulf when i return home to florida next week.
call me paranoid.
is it weird, that this time, i don't forsee any future happenings. llike i don't see myself back at work, tryin to envision thanksgiving. it's all dark and foggy...hazy.
everytime i've gone on a plane, i've always been able to visualize the very near future and know I will be there. this time i don't see that or feel that, and it's scaring me.
if i don't return,......love.
now time to get off that mellow-dramatic bullllllllllshiiaat.
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| Jewel |
[02 Nov 2009|11:04am] |
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There are a few more on my flickr.
I wish I was closer..so i could have gotten her face.
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[19 Oct 2009|11:13pm] |
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this kind of reminds me of a picture of marilyn monroe...when she was photographed infront of a random gate by car headlights.
.but this is reni. ha. he.ho.
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| To Reni: |
[17 Oct 2009|08:14pm] |
You are a Turtle in a Hare's world.
(hahaha, this made me laugh)
Friend,
Emily
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| I like this song...: Citzen Cope. |
[12 Oct 2009|10:02am] |
Let the drummer kick
Let the drummer kick that
Relations
Creation
Incarceration
Determination
Equation
Humiliation
Reincarnation
Situation
Elation
Identification
Retaliation
Education
Inspiration
No Substitution
Solution
Conclusion
Let the drummer kick
Let the drummer kick that
Relations (The Apollo had to break 'em)
Creation (It's a gift, It's a blessing)
Incarceration (What keeps you down)
Determination (What gets you out)
Equation (They said you could make it)
Humiliation (What you feel when they say it)
Reincarnation (N-A-V)
Situation (Why we've got to sing)
Elation (So many in need)
Identification (Gives you the right to shoot)
Retaliation (What would it do)
Education (Gives you the right to do this)
Inspiration (Is what pulls you through)
Substitution (Try to subsitute)
Non-inclusion (Just got to bust through)
Drug infusion (For the chosen few)
Mass confusion (When they say that they died for you)
Delusion (Sayin' that your dreams don't come true)
Solution (It can take a hold of you)
Conclusion
Inspiration (Is what pulls you through)
Let the drummer kick (Inspiration)
Let the drummer kick that (Inspiration)
You don't even have to wait
You don't even have to wait
Let the drummer kick
Let the drummer kick that
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[27 Sep 2009|10:26pm] |
i spent the last hour looking for photography internships/grants/ANYTHING.
all require a bachelors (from what I found) or lots and lots of money.
I just want to take pictures for the rest of my life.
Maybe make a book.
travel A LOT.
learn, experience, and grow.
that's it.
for some reason I become very guarded whenever I am around my mom.
I have no idea why. I have a possible idea, but..really, why?
it makes me sad to feel like that.
sleeping in this big ol' house makes me scared to sleep at night.
my throat and neck hurts....very much.
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[20 Sep 2009|08:15am] |
Dear Emily,
I know you have been kind of a mess this year. Your internals reflect that of a zigzag maze. Your eternals are that of a weeping widow. But you need to come together already. Please find it in yourself to climb that mountain. I know you are severely anchored to earth with weight that has never been this heavy before. But you need to be alive again. The dove will fly back when your ready.
Love who you are.
Sincerely,
Yourself.
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[17 Sep 2009|05:27pm] |
i was thinking today.
I
eh..nevermind.
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[13 Sep 2009|10:41pm] |
Wally (or however he is spelled) reminds me of Pearson when he was hip hop.
MTV is shit.
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